"Kakayanin." The line I literally said after day one ends—with all the pressure on coping and the burdened feeling when I received the assignment I rarely tried to do before. From the day after day one to the second Saturday, I had only establish platforms and none of my assignments were created. I lost my focus because of the busy week, it made me think that maybe I can't continue with this. "Kaya ko ba talaga."
More questions were building up as day two of the program was approaching. Questions left unanswered until the day came.
"Ano nga ba talaga ang Voice Artistry? What could I do? How can I do it?" Queries of an infant voice artist and I got the answers right away that day from the first speaker. The Voice Scout made me realize that those things are not new to me, from the platforms to the equipments that'll be used. I've been there, I touched everything—my mind just lied to me that I'm innocent enough that in fact, I wasn't. It moved me, made me step a level higher.
As the day was running, it made me think about the questions I have and I am slapped by the truth that all were just excuses. Sir Choy and the other CVAP leaders sprinkled salt to my wounded leg of passion and made me want to run the mile. "Hindi ko namamalayan na nakikinig na pala ako ng mabuti na hindi masyadong ginawa noong unang araw." A hypocrite lake turned into a pushed forward flowing stream.
"Nagkaroon rin ako ng ganang magpatuloy nang nabigyan ako ng pagkakataong magsalita sa activity for day two." I was super nervous at that time, it was like "nanlalamig ang katawan ko ngunit natutunaw ang loob." Conquering my fear on speaking or presenting at a virtual stage to number of people is another leap and I survived.
Day two really punched me and kicked my ass to continue this path specially when Mr. Robinson presents. He was the real deal and the proof that I don't have questions and doubts—it was all excuses. "Kinaya niya—bakit hindi ko kaya?" It was a motivational day for an unmotivated voice.
—Bannie "BBVoice" Bandibas
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